Maybe l could come over on Sunday-possibly Monday?
I really don't like going to church anymore. The church I go to is definitely not good for me. The people are so fake. You can TELL they're fake, that's how bad it is. I go there and I act like myself. I'm really quiet, though. I don't talk to anybody except Katie. Because I don't LIKE anybody except Katie.
When I walked up the stairs to the Youth center, this girl snobbishly asks, "And why didn't -YOU- go to Falls Creek?"
I said, "Sex camp? Don't let your tone get out of line with me again, Ashley," and then I walked right past her.
In case you didn't know (and I apologize if you do, just want to make sure you know what I'm talking about), Falls Creek is the most famous church camp in the United States, maybe the world. It's in northern Oklahoma. Falls Creek is also known as sex camp, because people sneak off at night into the woods and pretty much go at it with each other.
The honest to God reason I don't go is because I don't want to.
I don't feel that I need to go to camp to become closer to God. It's a waste of money, because people go there to feel closer to God, and then they go back to their old ways. So every year, these people go to Falls Creek and come back wanting to rededicate themselves. I can understand rededicating once, but once is enough. If they're not going to take it seriously, then don't go. And that's why I'm not going. This is MY journey with God that I plan to take alone. Nobody else can help me become closer. It all relies on my willingness and other things.
And I'm losing my faith because of the church. They want to do things that I don't feel comfortable with. They're complaining about being condemned for their religion, but then they turn around and do the same ******** thing to others, EVEN OF THE SAME DAMN RELIGION. Like Ashley did to me.
I'm just fed up.
And I don't want to go anymore.
But I don't know how to tell them.
If I came over on Saturday-Sunday, then it would give me an excuse not to go to church. But I can't keep doing that. It would give me extra time to think about what to do and how to do it, though.