• Why Does it Hurt so Much?

    Thought I had love…
    But now I’m not sure…
    But then we were out of love
    That I still wasn’t sure
    He said to still be his friend
    Which I talked to him everyday
    Thinking that one of the days…
    We could fall back in love.
    I always cried about him
    Not really sure why
    Because really how was there love
    It was inside a box
    With little moving people
    Whom, you could take to anyplace
    Just to talk to the people you know.
    But now I had a friend,
    Who I think he likes
    And it only takes one night
    On the internet to take flight
    But I still have feelings for him
    Only God knows why.
    I still have this feeling
    On the inside
    But how could that be??
    It’s inside a box…
    But then again
    Maybe love is always outside the box.
    So I am not sure
    Whether be the good ex,
    Be his friend and move on…
    Or just feel like I do
    With him around
    Yes I still hurt
    Yes I still cry
    I want him back…
    But I know if I try
    I’ll make it worse
    Heaven knows why…
    Maybe my Immaturity
    Will keep him at bay
    Then we just might go
    Our separate ways
    Delete the comments
    Delete the Private messages
    And completely erase each other
    From the others My Gaia
    But I still don’t get
    Why I’m taking it so hard
    I feel like he completes me
    But it’s in a box
    With little moving people
    Whom, you could take to anyplace
    Just to talk to the people you know
    But maybe the little people
    Also want to find love
    And I’m like connected with my avatar
    Just like in the movie
    Maybe that’s why I fell so hard
    I just want to know why
    Why…
    The real reason
    Why he said…
    Goodbye…
    Can someone answer that??
    Please!! For me??
    Why he could have stayed with me
    Instead of giving me misery
    ~sigh~ I still want him
    But I know if I try
    I’ll make it worse
    Heaven knows why…
    Maybe my Immaturity
    Will keep him at bay
    Then we just might go
    Our separate ways…
    And never see each other in real life
    Ever…