• Here alone I lay
    Waiting for the nightmares to go away
    Praying for the chatter to cease
    Wishing for my life to decrease

    How can I make such a choice?
    Why do you need the answer in my voice?
    Can't I pretend everything is fine?
    Can't I live the lie and pretend he's mine?

    Yes I feel rotten to the core
    Please leave me be, I implore!
    Yes I know he was not mine from the start
    Of course I would not play with his heart!

    Love him, sure why not?
    Now leave me to rot!
    Why do I need him so bad?
    How can you not understand!

    It is him who needs me
    Now do you finally see?
    I am pretending for him
    Now let me grow numb limb to limb

    But what about my heart?
    It was never there from the start
    They finally left me to sleep
    Alas all I could do was weep