• you wish you could run away?
    away from all your troubles
    just forget who you are
    go to where you can truly be yourself
    and not worry about what other ppl think about you
    or that you have to do everything to make them like you
    because you have some insecurity of never having a true friend
    and you feel completely alone in the world
    and there's absolutely nothing you can do about it.
    you just want to satisfy the insecure feeling you have
    but you don't know how to do that
    so you feel trapped wherever you are
    and you just want to run from your problems
    and never have to worry about them ever again.
    but you can't run
    because its no use.
    you're trapped in this hell
    and you try to put on a happy face
    but no matter how much you suck up to ppl
    or try to be their friend
    you still feel empty inside
    because you know they choose other ppl over you
    so you can never have the true friend you crave
    so you slowly die inside
    and cry yourself to sleep every night
    until you just cant take it anymore and you explode.
    you tell someone you think is a true friend
    and they promise to make it better
    but you find out later that the promise is empty
    and you had a small hope when they made the promise
    and the small hope has vanished just like your will to live.