• I wouldn’t have thought it possible
    If I hadn’t done it myself,
    But the weights are only a number after a certain point.
    Two more strokes to every one
    As the salt water burns into my eyes again.

    The light doesn’t change.

    I can still see your silhouette,
    Your brown hair flapping like
    A flag
    Eclipsing the clouded sky.

    When my head goes under
    I cant see
    You
    Anymore and, when I stay down
    Long enough, I wonder if you’re still there.

    Four minutes. Five Minutes.

    I’m surprised I haven’t drowned.
    I have to look at the photo of you to remember
    your face,
    (I kept it in a plastic bag so the sea wouldn’t take it, even if it took me.)
    But that constant never changes
    And I rip through the skin of this ocean,
    Dragging myself along.

    The smart ones just drown,
    But we’re too brave.