• I thought he said he would be there for me. Was it all just a lie? He let me hurt more then one time. I waited and waited and waited for him to talk to me, but he didn't. What happened?I wondered. I waited and waited and waited, but he still would answer me. My friend told me she did it, and that he thinks you did it so he's never going to talk to you again. Why? Did he even wait for an explanation, that I was asleep the whole time this was happening? That I didn't copy that chat down, that I wasn't the one who hurt her and hurt him? This was unfair, he didn't even wait to let me talk. I wrote death notes, hid in my closet, wrote things that described him and yet he didn't talk back. Well he did, and that was only to say mean things to me. I deleted those comments. I tried to forget, but I couldn't. Why didn't he just ask me why I "did" that? I would tell him the truth how I didn't. He blocked and ignored me, and pestered me, like a little kid. I was more mature then him, I thought. He hurt me even more when he told my friend he was getting engaged to the girl that left him before. That hurt me. I refused to cry, although I was crying in the inside. Have you ever seen those little signs on photobucket or something that says," I stand in the rain so no one knows I'm crying"? Thats what I did, even if there was thunder and lightning. He hurt me, and I didn't even do anything to him. Why do I deserve this?



    If you ever read this, I want you to know that I'm sorry. I'm sorry for whatever I did and if you don't want to talk to me, that I get that, even if it's not for a good reason. I didn't do that stuff to her, and I think I shouldn't be hurt by you just because you didn't even stop to listen. Don't blame this on me, because it's not my fault. It's you fault that I tried to kill myself, wrote things about you, cried about you. Never again will that happen. I tried to help you, but you pushed me away. If you don't answer me, then I understand what the stupid reason is. So, if you don't answer me, I say goodbye to you and that I can find someone better, someone I know wont hurt me like you did.

    -Jenna