• Dear someone.

    I love you, that's why this hurts! Did you cry at all for what we've all been through?! I can't even stand you right now! You once brought such light and joy to my life, even hope that things might get better. But with that one action plus the other ones, they built up in my memmory. Now I know you never really gave a damn about any of us! And I'm so ******** pissed, angry, hurt, and so betrayed! By you! You, the one who I looked up to! Some one who I told everything to! And felt safe with! But with knowing this and almost all my suspisions confirmed I need to let go, just like you let me fall. You let all of us fall! I want to scream and cry and blame you! And I can, but not for all of these things. Spreading lies about yourself to my mind, telling me of only you, or only of you and your lover. I hold nothing against the lover, because I know all your actions and thoughts are your own! I still love you and I hate that and yet I sadly some how don't mind it. I want you to become the Someone who I thought you were! The Someone you were! And hopefully can be again! But all hope in you is lost. Especially with all past and rescent events in my life I've lost almost all my hope in almost everything, escpecially you, dear Someone.

    Becca