• I'm scheduled to graduate in less then four months and these are the things that came to mind the other morning while thinking of graduating.

    It is about 3 a.m. and I've been up since about 2 a.m.. Anyone reading this is probably thinking well why the are you up at 2 a.m.. Well, I decided I really didn't want to write an essay and that I'd just do it to at 2 a.m. when there isn't s**t on tv to watch and no one is on xbox. Well, sure enough at 2 a.m. I got up to write the essay and opened up Firefox. The first thing I type in is Jonathan Swift and I proceeded to click on the Wikipedia page. The page only showed me this stupid blackout crap and the first thing that ran through my mind was "Effffffff". So after about half an hour of just dicking around on the internet, I rolled over in bed, wrapped warmly in my jaguar print snuggy, to stare blankly at the ceiling and my thoughts went as follows: "What the ******** am I going to do with my life? I really don't want to graduate. I really just want to keep living a sheltered life underneath my mom and dads roof. I'm afraid of being a failure, more than likely I am. I have no talents. I have no skills. I don't have anything that separates me from the other guy. I'm not special." then I thought "Man, you know what would fix everything? A bullet lodged deep within my brain, but I really don't actually want to do that because I kind of want to stick around to see how everything will turn out. Why do all my thoughts always end with shooting myself?" I stared blankly at the ceiling for about another 10 minutes and then I started thinking again, "Every solution in my head ends with shooting myself because its my expression for 'Hey everybody, I'm actually really scared of the future and completely self-conscious and afraid the world won't accept me and I have a lot of social problems and and and and... (blank)" and then I thought "I really want to share this on facebook" so I proceeded to type this long status about my thoughts and then I thought "I wonder if facebook will let me post this long a** message as a status?" and as I right now am about to click post I have a lot more thoughts that I feel worth typing but to be honest this post is already excessive enough. Post.